Baptized in 2017 when I was 44 in Peterborough, Ontario – a small town where I always thought I’d settle. I had an interior conversion in 2014 through reading and reflection.
Forced to leave my home in Peterborough in 2021 after a long-standing misunderstanding came to a head in late 2020; I’m just starting to put things together after a nightmare experience.
Clergy sexual abuse crisis, and the cover ups. Tridentine Latin Mass. Schism. Spiritual abuse. Abuse of power. Truth and Reconciliation. The dehumanizing treatment of LGB Catholics. The second class status of women. Clericalism. Shunning and Shaming. No privacy. Surveillance capitalism. Bystander Syndrome. Tribalism. Identity Catholics and Euro nationalism. Simulation of a Sacrament and Canon Law that no one teaches you about until it’s too late. Mental health stigma in rural Ontario. Institutional Betrayal. Surveillance and loss of privacy. Somewhere in there I lost my career, my vocation, my home, my future, my ability to trust, my joy. Still traumatized, often triggered, living one day at a time.
New in 2024 and 2025: TLM is anti-Semitic? NAFO? Telegram intel intrigue? Italki vs Authentica & OSEB? A year long conversation on X with a mysterious West Virginian Catholic lady. Two priests in grey are out. Loss of mental privacy through neurotech. Augustinians. World Youth Day in Toronto. Hardened Left and Right polarization. Police make it up as they go along. Frankenstein-ish algorithms and the contents of LLMs acting on behalf of humans. US Catholic nationalism. Pope Francis passes away. A new Pope – an Augustinian, oh no, Original Sin and the Doctrine of Atonement. Letter from Chancellor Rick Ray arrived on May 8th.
Later in 2025: James Doyle. Residential school deniers in full force in BC. Land titles being questioned because of First Nations title. More frequent identity theft and targeted phishing online e.g. a paid subscription to On Canada in Toronto, a fake Facebook profile icon on my phone after I reported to Avey, a reply from a Canadian religious sister I didn’t email. Many Christian deconstruction conversations on X and Substack.
May / June 2026: Pilon’s lawyer answers a phone call asking me if I’ve been charged with sexual assault yet. (wtf?) I told him about Marilyn Cicutini saying “We get attacked, Jen” and her threats. In 2022, I spoke to the OPP officer (female) who charged Pilon; her words were: “There was enough evidence to lay a charge.” Hmm.
Online Lent ‘Conversations in the Spirit’ with the Ignatian Encounter Ministry. Hear that there are many Catholics who are unwelcome in the Church. cPTSD will probably be with me for life. Christ the King priest told me at Christmas 2025 that he didn’t want me volunteering at the parish. I posted a series of original documents regarding my nightmare on Bishop Bambera’s timeline on X. Awake Community has a speaker on restorative justice saying ‘victims just want revenge, which makes restoration difficult’. Voluntold to do the Laudato Si’ Animator program. Reported a phone conversation with Deb McCrae to Peterborough Diocese complaint like / Chancellor Ray Rick. Messaged the former Assistant to Bishop Daniel Meihn on X. Bishop Meihn is off to London. Vicar General Roch Martin off to Timmins. Bourgon at St Andrew’s at Pentecost. Me cycling between rage and morning, and the desire to move on, to forget.
Globe and Mail admits their investigation of the Kamloops findings in 2021 wasn’t as rigorous as it could have been. LPC conflating traumatized Canadians’ anger as denialism. (I’ve never liked single nouns and ‘denialism’ is a single noun that’s shamefully inadequate for this situation.) Discover more (mostly women) talking about religious trauma, institutional betrayal, deepfake porn on LinkedIn. Learning more about digital; voice prints can be stolen with just a few seconds of recording. AI agents acting autonomously. Pope Leo’s encyclical on Magnificent Humanity and the growing positive influence of the Church re: peace, human dignity, immigration, poverty.
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